Dear everyone that has me fifty shades of fucked up,
I will not apologize for my opinion. It's my opinion and I'm entitled to it. I have no sympathy for people who take their own lives. I believe they are cowards that just gave in and gave up. My sympathy goes to the families they left behind. The ones that are still here suffering. That's who I sympathize with. There are tons of organizations in the world that are designed to help anyone that is depressed in life. They didn't seek to find help, instead they chose to give up!
For those of you saying that it was their only way out and they had no other choice... I say to you BULLSHIT! To me you're the one encouraging suicide. You're just making excuses for it to be okay for one to take their own life. It's not okay to commit suicide, however, it's your opinion and I don't hate you for it.
For everyone writing me saying, "I've been suicidal since age 11 and you're just an insensitive drag queen bitch and I hope you die!" I say to you GOOD FOR YOU! I'm happy you're alive and still here surviving! Use your energy to help someone else. Each one, teach one.
For everyone writing me saying you don't know what it's like, you've never been bullied, you've never been depressed, you've never had to go through anything! I say to you GET A GRIP ON LIFE. Everyone goes through things. Everyone has a story! A little insight for you, here's my story (save your pity party, I don't want it)...
I was bullied for all of my life. My nickname at school was Gay James (BTW I didn't identify as gay at the time). People taunted me. I wouldn't even go to the school bus stop because I was afraid. I'd wait on the porch until I saw the bus and then I'd run to it when I saw it coming. All the while wishing for a seat near the driver so that someone could protect me.
At age 16 I was thrown out of the house. HOMELESS. I worked two jobs while in high school in order to pay for the hotel I was living in. Did I give up? No. Was I depressed? Extremely! But I kept going until one day I ended up on a little show called RuPaul's Drag Race.
After winning drag race I was bombarded with tons of hate mail from people all over the world because their favorite queen didn't win. Such rude things that you could never imagine from people who I never even met. Of course I became depressed and one lonely night in Toronto, Canada I attempted to end my life. Had I succeeded, I too would have been a coward. Giving up because of what other people said to me. Instead I fought for my life and my own happiness. I learned to ignore such ignorance from humans.
Everyday since RuPaul's Drag Race aired I (and many other contestants) continue to receive death threats, mean tweets and flat out hate from everyone including you. Yet I always ignore it, until last week. When someone decided to tweet me,
"Tyra Sanchez is the most annoying thing I ever watched"
In which I decided to respond, "Girl kill yourself" OH WAIT STOP THE PRESS lets bash Tyra because she told someone "Kill yourself". Had I told her to go fuck herself would that be more pleasing to you? Yeah maybe my choice of words may have been a little harsh. Maybe I should have advised her to play in traffic or to kick rocks? She wouldn't literally go fuck herself and I'm more than sure she wouldn't literally go outside and find some rocks to kick. Now I'm not sure if she would not have mind playing a game or two of dodge ball with Toyota and Buick (joke people, it's a fucking joke), but I'm damn sure she didn't literally kill herself. Moral of the story? Don't dish out what you can't take back. So to all of you fucks writing me horrible things I say to you, FUCK OFF!
Tough love,
-America's Sweetheart
P.S.
I never signed up to be a role model. I'm not asking you to follow me. You decided that on your own. So as your leader I'm not going to throw you a surprise pity party! Grow some balls! Grow a backbone and stand up for your life and own happiness. Suicide is not the answer. Don't be a coward. If anyone wants to bully you tell them to fuck off, go play in traffic and to kick rocks.
"Let go of difficulties from your past, cultural codes, and social beliefs. You are the only one who can create the life you deserve.
Begin to use the two most powerful words, I AM, to your advantage. How about, "I AM receiving every good thing. I AM happy. I AM abundant. I AM healthy. I AM love. I AM eternal youth. I AM filled with energy every single day."